To feel Involve

There is something wrong with my love life. I am not attached, but I FEEL involve.

I feel involve because there is unfinished business waiting for me, loose ends to tie up.

I feel involve because there are people who really LIKE me, but I don't feel the same way.

I feel involve because of the guilt hanging over me like a constant reminder that I am not completely free.

I feel involve because I don't know how to break it to them without causing pain.

I feel involve because I don't know how to communicate emotions across verbally. In fact, I never talk about emotions.

I feel involve because I just want to be friends but everyone gets the wrong idea.

Lastly, I feel involve because I am too lax with my guy friends. Every time they asked me something, my answer is yes, because I don't know how to say No or think that Nothing will ever come out of it. That we are just buddies.

With all the following reasons of me feeling 'involve', I feel that I cannot be involve romantically until I am friends with everyone, because I dare not take sides.

Is this what it feels like to be a Libra? To stand aside, analyse the situation, and have no part in anything but to keep the equilibrium steady?

No wonder the best explanation is - "I'm so messed up."

It is a bad answer, but it is my best.